Holla if You Hear Me!

Just a thought for my fellow "Yelling Mommas" - I looked over my morning yesterday and played it all back in my head.  Although my yelling moments don't happen often they do happen and it always makes me more stressed than I was in the first place.  I realized that I was tense before my son approached me because I was not fully prepared for my day which also left me feeling drained.  I also neglected to spend time with God prior to the start of my day which always gets me on the right foot and I neglected to plan out my day leaving room for flexibility of course which helps me see what I can and can't realistically do.  

So I began to multitask and was trying to fit way too much stuff into 2 hrs because I had so much left over from the previous day that still needed to be done.  I had a chance to breathe during our homeschool group and afterwards I did something I should have done at the start of my day,  I acknowledged Him. Proverbs 3:6 says, "In all your ways acknowledge Him, and he will make straight your paths".  

When I stopped and asked God what should I do with the remainder of my day and all that was on my task list He directed me and I followed His lead.  I know this but often times I don't do this.  I was still feeling a little drained as my day went on but because God had mapped it out for me I was not stressed.  His plan was perfect.  I still didn't do everything I wanted to do but I did what was needed.

Today is a new day and I have not yelled yet.  I am taking my day moment by moment and instead of trying to do it all I am doing what matters and seeking Him for direction.  How is your day going?

Sheryll

Even Though She is Gone

I can’t believe that she is gone and it’s easy for people to say that I will carry on. They even attempt to say that You knew best.
They say it was in Your plan and that they know what I am going through. Many even say that they understand.
Well why is it that I can’t find peace and although I try, I can’t find rest.
What is Your reason for what I am going through? What is the purpose of this test?
When I think about what wasn’t said and all that I should have done.
I think about all the time we could have spent together each time I see the sun.
I can’t help but think that I should have been there when she needed me,
to hold her hand or just sit and talk; God I often feel guilty.


Ease you mind my child. Eventually it will be okay. Don’t think about what you could have or should have done. Don’t think about what you didn’t say.
It’s okay to cry at times and grieve if you must. But continue to rely on Me as you were taught and in Me put your trust.
I am here for you, even though you can’t see. Feel me with your heart and know that I can be; all that you need, I can be your friend. You can talk to me when you are hurting. On Me you can depend.
Though your mother is gone and physically out of your sight,
you can still talk to her as you always have and it will be alright.
Tell her about every new experience and each new exciting thing that you would normally share. For although you can’t see her, she sees you; and just like me, she will always be there. I love you!


Sheryll