I was so busy trying to make it all work that nothing was working. My time away remedied that and I now feel peace . God showed me that everything has its proper place in order for it to work together. That may seem like an obvious statement but when you lose your focus you lose sight of even the simple things. One of the things that weighed on me and us as a family was me working outside of the home. At the end of last year God changed that.
I am no longer working outside of the home and that is a huge answer to prayer. My heart ached when I was away from home on the weekends, unable to participate in all of the activities that would take place from time to time. In addition to the loneliness I felt being away from my family, the tiredness from working and homeschooling took its toll. My focus was off and I wasn't motivated. Since quitting I have begun to appreciate what a blessing it is to be able to teach my boys and I do not take it for granted.
My passion for my family has been renewed. I am no longer weary and weighed down. I have begun to take more time for myself even if it means waking up before the kids or pausing in my day to pray. These two things help me to stay focused and feel refreshed. If you do not spend time with God alone on a routine basis and you would like to know how to establish a routine leave me a comment and I can share what I do.
While away my writing did continue on a different platform. I became one of the contributors to my church's blog and I write there monthly. You can click here to see my most recent post. Writing there has been a blessing and has even stretched me a bit. I am grateful that God still allowed me to use the writing voice that He gave me while taking a break here.
With a fresh perspective on how my life should be order came the desire to write here again and the permission from God to do so. I look forward to continuing this journey with you. I have never admitted to having all the answers, only God does. I do admit to be honest with you about my successes and my failures, my insecurities and my flaws. I want to be used by God to be a blessing to you as you journey through life. I hope to make you laugh and cry only tears of joy as we reflect on God's goodness.
I have missed you and look forward to talking with you again.
My family and I are also working on a few projects that I am very excited about. I plan to share more about that with you soon. Oh and since I missed wishing you a happy new year I would like to do so now. Happy New Year!